Reagan, some of these words that you say….I believe I understand now. You feel so intently. You have a tender heart and a sensitive soul, and that is what I love about you the most. When you say words that take us by surprise, those ugly words are so foreign upon your lips, because that is not what your heart speaks.
You have a tremendous love for animals and you will save lives one day. You torment your sister, but at the same time, you will have her back when she is crossing the street. Family is everything to you, and though you will not tell me, I know you love me. I do not think that video games are your priority, I think that time alone with your dad is what you want, and that is the activity that you choose. You look up to your older brother, and miss him all the time because he is older now and has his own life that is separate from you. You must know you will always have a special connection with him.
My dear son, how you are such a worrier. What I would do, to take those stresses away from what burdens you and keeps you up at night. You worry about what your friends think of you, you are consumed with time, and you want to please your teachers and it hurts you when you don’t feel you’ve worked hard enough. I’m proud of all you have done, and you have to know that you can do no wrong in my eyes.
Be free, and just let it go. Life is just beginning, and there will be plenty of time to worry about bigger problems. Be a kid and be silly and carefree. Stop agonizing over all the little things that don’t matter.
I love you so much. It is like looking into my mother’s eyes every day, and I love that God has graced me with this through you. You have such a big heart, and I never want you to change, Reagan, but please stay guarded. Life is so cruel, and people can be ugly spirited. Stay true to yourself, and loyal to your sensitive nature. Protect your heart, but love freely and unconditionally.