I wanted to reach out to everyone and send a big warm thank you for all of your well wishes, concerns, and heartfelt sympathies. Everyone has been so very kind, especially right after Ross’ death, the holiday following that, and this holiday.
The kids and I are trying to find our new “normal”. Maybe even some happiness, but a different kind of happiness. Everything changed overnight, but we are bending and twisting to adapt and learn new ways of coping in more healthy manners.
Please continue to say prayers for Reagan, Bailey, and Tyler. Every day will always be a struggle, and we all are keenly aware that the holidays either make us or break us, and for Ross’ children….there will never be a time when their dad is not weighing heavily in their hearts. As a mother, I obviously try really hard to make it all better, and always be a constant presence in their lives….with all of the uncertainly and doubt of death sneaking up and taking their dad away….I can only be here, and I can only ensure they know that my love for them will stretch and expand to meet any needs they might have. A mother always finds more love to give.
And a father always finds more love to give. Please pray for those widowers out there, as well. These lost souls have had to assume the mother role, as well, and sometimes they are doing many tasks outside of their comfort zone. I have such an enormous amount of respect for my Widow/Widower friends that have wrapped their protective arms around their little families, when they are broken in a million pieces.
We are all doing the best that we can, and even though this cruel world is judgmental, opinionated, and cold….we have to force ourselves to look internally, and focus on our children, and focus on creating our new chapters, because that is what our spouses would want us to do. To be strong, and fight for a new happiness.
Please accept my sincere thankfulness. My cup runneth over. I could not have pushed through this past year alone, and I most certainly could not have woken up with a newfound strength every single morning as a sole parent, after my family endured such a trauma. Please know that I am grateful to each and every one of you, and will continue to be, as my extended family still reaches out to us. We will never tire of your care and concern, and we will always hold a special place in our hearts for those who have continued to be a source of strength and guidance.
I love you.